The final day of LD's visit before her flight back to Europa tomorrow morning while I'll be at work.
I texted and arranged that she'd meet me right after work today. We went to Target and she bought her son some of those Skylanders that the kids love so much these days. Then back to my house where we talked and had a last evening together. I tried my best to plead my case: that we have an unusually intimate bond; that she's a captive who's deluded into wanting to comfort her captor; that her situation is sick and unhealthy and a break-up would be better in the long run; that she should model a live of love and support rather than passive-aggressive silence for her kids.
But she wants to go try to make her "family" work.
I shut down and tensed up. I literally could not respond. LD got hysterically tearful. But despite everything, there was a farewell dinner at Zaftig's house that she was supposed to go to, and Zaftig kept texting every few minutes to see if she was coming. We cried and kissed and whispered but we couldn't get control. But she had to go to this dinner. LD insisted on me attending (despite yesterday's awkwardness), because she wasn't quite ready to let go yet. Neither was I, because I came along. Eyeball was there, and to our surprise, Muffin was as well. Nothing was said about LD and I arriving together. It was calm and peaceful, sort of.
Eventually it was time for me to go back. LD drove me back to my place where we had more heartbreak drama in the car (Zaftig texting her twice more, because she's an interfering meddlesome old harridan I suppose). And eventually, again, I had to go and she had to go back for good. I just said "Be safe" and got out of the car and went inside.
I knew she was going to clear her head. I knew we'd be on hiatus and our contact would slow down. I didn't know she'd already made her mind up to start yet again to make it work with Kraut. The same thing she's been doing, passively, for three years, hating it and not speaking to Kraut's family, she thinks she needs to give another shot.
I can't take it.