Friday, September 28, 2007

I'm feeling delicate and this must show

Getting impatient and more than a little anxious, I fired off an email to the head of Prestigious on Wednesday, asking about my status. He wrote back two days later, saying they were nearly ready to talk about a job offer (!), but I'd need to call and make an appointment to come in and discuss some "questions and concerns" they have that need "clearing up."

Me being me, I am totally freaking out here. Why did it take me emailing them to respond? Why didn't he have his secretary call me to make the appointment, as it's always been done before?

And for the love of all that's holy, what the hell are they concerned about?

Do they fear I'm a pedophile (or gay), because I'm 36 and single (divorced)? Did they do a deep background check and find out I got suspended from college my sophomore year due to a violent altercation? Did I say something during my two and half hours of interviews that came out sounding creepy, or self-contradictory, or off-putting? Do they suspect mendaciousness in my self-representation?

Although I'm clean of nearly all charges (the college thing really happened), I'm not the most polished interviewer. I may not have sold myself well.

It's clear that Prestigious was eager when they saw my resume; and was eager after my meeting with the Head and vice-head; but then sometime during my lengthy interview with the teachers, that eagerness fizzled. What did I do to dampen their enthusiasm?? And how can I make it right?

I'm seriously freaking out here. FREAKING OUT!!

I'm going out with Epalg tonight, though. That's always fun.

2 comments:

Churlita said...

Oh man. not knowing is what freaks me out the worst. Even if it's bad, I could handle it way better than not knowing.

indy1016 said...

Don't freak out!! You'll make yourself crazy that way. Good for you for staying so on top of the whole process. Did you make the appt. yet?